Grief Ceremony:
Create a container (space/time/day) for grief and get inside of it.
The grief that’s coming up has been there a long time, and it’s time to let the pressure off the pressure cooker and allow it to come up to be seen, heard, and felt.
It’s been building up for a long, long time, and it’s uncomfortably noticeable because it’s ready to be healed. I know it may seem as if there’s no bottom to this pool, but I promise you there is. Your grief is sacred; it will not drown you or hurt you. And inside this container you’re creating for yourself, you won’t hurt anyone else.
First, thank your body for holding onto this grief and regret for so long for you and for feeling safe to show it to you so it can be healed.
As you breathe into that and feel that gratitude for your body, ask your Highest Self if there is anything that would support you as you allow yourself to go to the bottom of that pool. Don’t overthink it. If any images of crystals, a favorite flower, an essential oil, a cozy blanket, a punching bag, or whatever come to mind, that’s probably a good sign that it would support you. If nothing comes to mind, no worries.
Likewise, ask your Highest Self if there is any music that would support you to go to the bottom of your grief. It could be heavy metal or hard music that sounds sad and puts you in “the mood” to express grief Or, it could be some music to listen to whenever you reach the bottom of the pool. Totally up to you. Don’t overthink it.
When you have gathered any items you plan on having nearby to support you, feel into when would be the best time to “step into the pool”. It could be a ceremony you want to have, or it could happen when you’re naturally in an angry or annoyed state, so you don’t have to “conjure up” the feelings. Let your feelings lead the way here.
Next, when the time comes, get in the pool and let the water come higher and higher. You may need space to move around if you want to cry, scream, curl up in a ball, etc. No one should witness this. It’s for you only.
Have any supportive items or music nearby and use them however you need.
And then, allow and feel and go deeper and deeper. Play a memory of something that feels sad in your mind, and you will begin to feel it in your body. Witness the scenes from those movie memories or feelings of yours.